Beauty in the beast world-Chapter 310: Struggle between hatred and love

Kyrell felt like he was dreaming. Here he was finally in front of the one he loved the most. Even touching her felt like a sin for she was too precious for someone like him. But letting her go? That seemed even more impossible. As he roamed his eyes on her, a small injury on her face made him frown.

"You’re hurt" words left his mouth making Lyra break out of her daze. She quickly tried to distance herself from him but his grip on her chin tightened even more, "Stop with that" Kyrell warned, "Stop distancing yourself from me" It felt like his heart was being ripped apart from his chest. Her eyes looking at him were filled with so much contempt that it hurt him.

Lyra felt revulsion as Kyrell touched her. She never knew that she was capable of having these intense emotions towards someone. For the longest time, she had thought of herself as a forgiving person but it seemed like she was mistaken. It was a harsh realization. She was like any other human being, filled with jealousy, envy, and hatred. When Kyrell betrayed her, there were many nights she stayed awake thinking about what went wrong. At first, she was angry at herself for letting someone like him in her heart. She already had mates so what made her fall for him? For someone who grew up seeing monogamy, she was way too quick to accept the beast world’s norms and act on them. Was it because she was biologically a half-beast herself? Her father belonged to this world after all. Maybe that’s why, rationality followed suit the more she thought. Slowly she decided to forgive him. He had chosen a life for himself and that was his choice. Mating with another female had nothing to do with her. Hence she decided, that when she saw him again, she would act amicably with him as there was no need to make an enemy out of an immortal beastman.

Although her mates were strong, there was no need to push them into unnecessary feuds. Just because a male left her, she did not want to act on her impulses by being a bitch. That was not like her. She had people to protect, her mates, their tribesmen, and her babies...then she touched her stomach. There was another life growing in her so putting herself at risk was not optimal. She knew this....She knew all this, yet why was she feeling so pathetic? Instead of being reasonable, she wanted to burn the world down. She wanted to hurt him like he had down to her. Just looking at him made her feel all the betrayal that she had gone through. Her rational side lost its battle as she said, "You disgust me, don’t touch me" If madness was what made her feel better then she would rather be mad.

As soon as those words left her mouth, it was like a dormant volcano finally exploded. Kyrell’s eyes crept with madness and desperation. His hand left her face instead they traveled toward the back of her head. Gripping a handful of her golden hair, he yanked pulling her towards him, "I should have never let you go" Lyra winced in pain as he continued, "I should have never agreed to your terms. I was a fool believing that I could get along with your mates for your sake. I should have killed them and taken you for myself"

Lyra glanced up at him with a frown, "You should be thankful that my mates didn’t kill you when they had a chance. How dare you!? How dare you talk about killing my mates after all you have done!? You are a disgusting, vile traitor. I’m ashamed of myself for ever letting someone like you in my life"

His monologue about killing her mates set something off in Lyra. Till now, her mates have been nothing but supportive of all her decisions. They accepted Kyrell without prejudice and the result of it was a betrayal. He mated with another and now, he was talking as though she had done something wrong. The slap she had received from his mate that day was still etched in her memory. It was not the pain that bothered her but the shame that came with it that drove her to the edge. Like a fool, she had rushed to see him as soon as she heard about him getting hurt and what did it grant her? The entire Eagle tribe looked at her as though she was a sinner but she took it for him. Her heart was ripped apart when she saw his mark on another woman. She still took it. But when his mate said that she was a loose woman for coming to see a mated beast, it broke her. Lyra didn’t show it that day. But she was completely broken. She loathed people who went after another who was already in a relationship. She had promised herself to never fall into that kind of pit but here she was, Kyrell belonged to another woman. He has a mate and yet was touching her. That touch alone felt like bugs were crawling all over her body.

"Get off of me!" She screamed having enough of this emotional whiplash, "Stop touching me!" with that she struggled as hard as she could to get out of his hold. It didn’t matter even if she died today. She would rather end herself than go through the humiliation she felt that day. She was not a loose woman! She refused to be like that.

Kyrell’s eyes went wide as he saw her struggle to break free. Disregarding herself, she kept on pushing him away and pulling back, "Stop" he said afraid that she would hurt herself, "Lyra, please stop" he pleaded while letting go of her hair. Then he held her shoulders trying to stop her from doing something dire, "Please, please love please stop"

"Leave me alone" Lyra burst into tears, "I hate you, leave me. I hate you so much" As her cries grew louder, she had difficulty breathing. She kept on choking on her sobs making Kyrell fret.

He hugged her and rubbed her back, "It’s alright, Lyra, it’s alright you can hate me. Stop crying now, Love. You will hurt yourself like this. Please love, don’t do this to yourself. Don’t do this because of someone so pathetic as me"

Gradually Lyra’s sobs came to a halt and she kept on murmuring, "Kyrell?"

"Yes love?"

"Kyrell?"

"Hmm? I’m right here"

"Kyrell.....come back to me" Kyrell hugged her tighter as she added, "I miss you" She had enough. The contradictions in her mind were driving her crazy. On one hand, she wanted him to stay with her, to leave his mate. But it was wrong, "I want you to leave me, I beg you" ’Please before I go completely mad, please leave me’

Kyrell smiled sadly hearing her words. She still had him in her heart. That was enough, "I’m not going anywhere. I will always be with you"

"I love you" Once again she broke into sobs, "I should hate you but I love you so much" freewebnσvel.cøm

Kyrell felt helpless. She had such strong feelings for him and yet acted like she hated him. Something was wrong here, he could feel it. What made her so hellbent on loathing him? Was it her mates? That was a plausible deduction. Did they whisper lies about him making her hate him? Just to get rid of him? No....although they are selfish regarding spending time with their mate, they didn’t like putting Lyra through a difficult position. They always strived to make themselves look good in her eyes. So it was farfetched for them to badmouth Kyrell which would in turn hurt their mate. The least they would do is get rid of him without her knowledge.

There was something more to the story that was not adding up. But one thing was certain. He would kill the one who had tried to come in between him and his beloved.

’Slip’ His train of thought came to a sudden halt when he felt Lyra’s grip loosen around him. And when he pulled back, she slumped down and was about to fall if not for him holding her.

"Lyra?" Kyrell breathed heavily as he tried to wake her up. But no matter what he did, she remained unresponsive. Her eyes were closed and she was turning pale, "No, No!"

His heart-wrenching cry resounded inside the room and the next moment he was out of it. He turned his hands into wings before taking a flight up in the sky. When he cast a glance down the ground, he saw Lyra’s mate engaged in a battle with his men. The latter were the ones who had fought by his side in the past whenever the late Eagle king ordered him to carry out dangerous missions. Although not on par with the immortal beastman, they could manage to hold themselves in a fight.

With that settled, he flew towards his tribe. For now, the most important thing was having Lyra get treated by a witch master.