I Became the Little Demon in Leading Role's Family-Chapter 596 - 605: Your demands are too high, I can’t achieve them

Chapter 596: Chapter 605: Your demands are too high, I can’t achieve them

Ye Xiu’s heart felt as if something were clogging it, sour and swollen, and it tore at her with pain.

Every word Xingxing said filled her with immense shame.

But in the end, she harbored neither resentment nor hate, just sincerely wished her well.

In reality, this hurt her even more than if she had hated her.

Because she had been excluded by Xingxing.

"Xingxing, I truly love you all, even if I am not by your side, even if I may not be competent enough, but I love you all."

To each child, her love was genuine. They were the children she had labored to bring into the world. It was only because things had not gone as she hoped.

She had undergone hypnosis, so her attention to them had not been enough. And she also couldn’t neglect the schoolwork of those children.

Being a teacher, bearing the responsibility, naturally required more of her attention.

She had thought that Xingxing and the others could feel it.

"Oh, I’m sorry, but I didn’t feel it."

Bai Zhi looked at her indifferently, speaking one word at a time.

"I’ve said it before, you just be yourself and don’t expect anything from me. I will only love those who give me love, and as for you, I am grateful that you gave birth to me, but that’s all.

I can wish you well, but I’m sorry, I can’t love you.

I have learned not to expect your love and care.

Whether in the past or now, you have never really been a qualified mother.

You say you love each of us three equally, wanting everything to be fair, but you don’t realize one thing, that while you ask for fairness, you forget that the three of us were never the harmonious siblings you imagined.

Besides... fairness, that very word, signifies the dilution of family affection."

Demanding fairness at home, what a joke.

Would she ask Grandpa for fairness?

Ye Xiu seemed to have finally found herself, and indeed she had, but in her desire for this and that, she had become somewhat blindly confident, or perhaps selfish.

You want to be a great teacher, give your all, and yet still long for their love.

Sorry, she was a selfish child, and she couldn’t do it.

Those feelings of despair were too deep, especially when she finally hoped to find a glimmer of attention from her, with a heart riddled with wounds.

She... had not managed it.

Ye Xiu had destroyed her very last shred of hope.

It had nothing to do with Bai Da, it was Ye Xiu herself who had crushed it.

Even now, there was a faint ache near her heart, so she wouldn’t forgive, she just couldn’t.

If she couldn’t have what she wanted, then she would want nothing at all.

"Xingxing..."

Ye Xiu realized that Xingxing was indeed very articulate, every single sentence sharply stabbing her heart, making her bleed profusely, yet she found no words to retort.

"So what do you want me to do? Give up work and just stay with you? What about your living expenses, your tuition fees, your future? Don’t you know what our family is like now?"

Today, the burden of the family rested on her shoulders alone; she had to work hard, and for her, that effort was indeed her job.

"Are you resenting me for not understanding you, or what?"

Bai Zhi gave a cold laugh, suddenly finding it somewhat amusing.

Had the hypnosis made Ye Xiu so unreasonable, or had she always been this way?

"You should know one thing, whether or not I need to work is none of your concern, I never expected to get anything from you, and you might as well stop hoping too.

Other mothers work too, but how do they treat their children? And how do you treat us?

You’ve placed yourself on a pedestal, thinking you’ve loved us enough.

So you need to work, guide students, support us, you’re so tired, and so we must be grateful, right?"

"I’m so sorry, I just can’t do it.

Your expectations are too high. I can’t love someone who has never given me anything but despair.

I’m tired, I need to rest now."

Bai Zhi’s face was dark as she closed her eyes, yet she felt a bit foolish. Why say all this?

If she didn’t care, she should just ignore her and that would be enough.

Ye Xiu’s face turned pale, tears falling relentlessly.

So this was how she was seen in Xingxing’s heart.

Had she really been wrong?

Ye Xiu didn’t know, she truly didn’t.

She always thought that as long as she treated her three children fairly, they would eventually see her true heart.

She knew she had wronged Xingxing, but she knew her mistakes and would make amends.

She was tired too, but had she forgotten? Xingxing’s already wounded heart didn’t want to open up to her anymore, did it?

What about Bai Yu and Bai Ye? Did they also think she wasn’t a good mother? Certainly.

Isn’t it true that Bai Yu just doesn’t like her?

How had things gotten to this point? Why had it come to this?

"Xingxing, you rest well, I’ll go out now..."

Bai Xin stood up and walked out.

"Sister Ye Xiu, can we talk for a moment?"

Bai Xin really couldn’t stand it anymore. It wasn’t that Ye Xiu shouldn’t come to see Xingxing, but every time she came, she would say these things...

"Okay, little sister, thank you for taking care of Xingxing. I’m not fit to be a mother, and she doesn’t like me."

Ye Xiu felt uncomfortable, she knew she had hurt Xingxing and didn’t dare to hope for forgiveness anymore.

"Sister Ye Xiu, are you blaming Xingxing?"

Bai Xin immediately felt unhappy upon hearing Ye Xiu’s sarcastic tone. Was this blaming Xingxing?

"No, I’m just feeling a bit upset."

Ye Xiu shook her head vigorously. How could she blame Xingxing? Her heart was just in pain.

"Sister Ye Xiu, surely you don’t think you’re the one being wronged.

You know the kind of life Xingxing has lived over the years. To not even speak of hating you, even if she did, wouldn’t it be justified? Have you fulfilled your duties as a parent?

She doesn’t expect your love, so can’t you stop piercing her heart?

Xingxing was kidnapped, injured, and it took her a lot of effort to finally move out of the intensive care unit. Wouldn’t she hope the first person she saw would be her mother?

I informed you the other day, did you come?

You may say you were too busy, and I was here for her.

But did you know how critical the situation was? If something had... would you have regretted it? In your heart, Xingxing is not as important as your students, not as important as your job.

What use is all the money then?

Then what right do you have to expect Xingxing’s forgiveness?

It’s really not right to be too selfish. Xingxing has suffered enough, besides, since she’s with me, Dad’s taking care of you, and you don’t even need to provide for her living expenses."

Feeling particularly hard-pressed, believing she’s done a lot, so everyone must understand her, why?

What has she truly done for Xingxing to ask for her understanding?

"When Xingxing was facing a life or death situation, what were you doing? You thought it was okay because I was there, but did you ever consider that in her moment of life and death, Xingxing might want her mother?

In other words, if she needed you and you weren’t in her heart, it had already grown cold.

Don’t blame the child for not understanding you. I’m asking you to give her some space, to stop the constant complaints, as she’s still suffering from her injuries."