The Dark Rebirth of Pandora: Revenge of the Abyss-Chapter 187: Doubts answered and trust

My mother follows me to my room, I have so many questions and doubts about myself and her, as soon as we reach my room I go in and she does too.

"Mom, you can sit wherever you like...I’ll wait." She checks out my room as I imagined she would, she looks at the Zephyra statue for a while and then at the posters on the wall.

There are posters of Mikael and Delphina, she seems displeased with the Delphina ones as she observes them for a while, but doesn’t say anything about them and just sits on my bed. ƒгeeweɓn૦vel.com

"You can ask your questions, daughter." She says in a tone almost too loving, she knows why I wanted to talk to her so much, I have many doubts about various things and there are also things I want to know.

"...Why did you choose me?" I don’t understand this, I don’t understand why I was chosen, I’m very grateful for it, but I’m still curious, why did she choose me specifically? Didn’t she have other options? And if she did, why was I the chosen one.

"...I...don’t have a partner, my eggs just form a pre-defined body by me, but this body is empty, so inside my eggs there will be a body that I choose how it will look, but that has no soul."

"But a soul is practically mandatory to create a living being, and even if I create a being without a soul, it will be an irrational being, and I don’t want an irrational being."

"With this there are 3 options for the birth of my children, the first is that I create an artificial soul, but I personally don’t like this option, it would be like creating a fake doll instead of a living being."

"...the second option is that I use a fragment of my own soul, which is the case of your older sister."

"She was born from a fragment of my soul that formed a new being, although it is a fragment of my soul, she is not simply a part of me, the soul to complete itself changed to suit the body."

"Thus forming a new being, a completely new soul different from me."

"And finally there is the option of inserting a soul into the body."

"That was your case, when the heroes were summoned, I used the maximum of my mana to observe if there would be someone suitable for my plans, because my plans would require an outside soul."

"I watched them since they arrived, this really exhausted a lot of my mana, but it was worth it, but among the heroes, no one really seemed suitable to be my new daughter."

"None of the heroes met my requirements, I observed each one individually, hunting for what was best, and I was getting disappointed to see that none were suitable..."

"Until I saw you...you were useless, your magic was real trash and your talent was null, but that’s irrelevant, what really mattered was a soul, a soul that could follow the path I want."

’Wow...how kind...so other heroes could have had a chance to be the demon king...hahaha in the end I won this time’ she seems unable to hold back, my mother insulted me in every possible way.

But I’m glad that at least in this I’ve beaten the heroes and been chosen by my mother as the new demon king.

"And in that your soul caught attention, a patient soul, but full of hatred and anger, these two factors were great the patience because my children are extremely impulsive and the anger and hatred to have no morals at all."

"A common soul would be consumed by the body of a Tenebris Abyssus, which is not at all normal by the standards of living beings, after all they were biologically created to be the apex of everything in all aspects."

"But I trusted that your soul would withstand this using hatred as fuel...this was partly a success, you were born and maintained a large part of what makes up your former self."

"Although part of your former self was consumed, it still didn’t affect you much, so it worked, and as it worked, there were no reasons to think it was bad."

"When you died, I pulled your soul, this momentarily weakened me, but I managed to pull you to me, and I gave you a proposal, a proposal that for you was a unique chance of salvation."

This really satisfies many of my doubts at once, but I still have some doubts that I want to know, so I decide to keep asking.

"Mom...why am I a girl? I’m not complaining, I actually like it, but I don’t understand why the gender change." I question this as I think about what she said about my soul.

"There are two reasons, the first is that the body in the egg was already female and could not be changed, I take a very long time to generate the egg and the being inside it, creating another was unnecessary and time-consuming."

"I obviously wouldn’t do that, so you being a girl would be natural in any scenario."

"And the second reason fits my plans, I wanted you to be a goddess, the deities are always women for a few reasons and the main one is the basis that forms us."

"You could only be a goddess by being a woman, this is also the reason I chose an external soul, there are conditions for someone to be chosen as a goddess."

"And as one of these rules, you could not be 100% a creation of one of the goddesses, so I necessarily had to have a soul coming from a completely new place without the intervention of any goddess in its creation."

"The body could be made by me, but the soul had to have come from a totally new location without the influence of any goddess."

I can understand what she’s trying to say with this and I’ve even heard these conditions before, so I know about them, after all the conditions are very limiting and fortunately I meet all the criteria.

"Any other questions?"

"Mom...you just want to use me and I’ve known that since the moment I was born, I knew I was created to help you achieve your purpose...but...do you at least like me?"

I really don’t mind her wanting to use me, I knew that when I accepted to be revived, I knew I would just be a means for her to achieve her goals, but still, I want her to like me.

Although I don’t know if I want her to like me because I’m her daughter, or if I want her to like me because I really miss having a mother in my life.

"Yes, I like you as a daughter." As soon as she says that, I can’t help but smile instantly with joy.

"...D-Do you not mind that my soul has already been human?" I say with doubt, but with a certain excitement, this is another aspect that bothers me, the fact that she might not like me because I’m a former human.

"Daughter...souls are just a mass of energy that stores information about a being, from the moment a soul goes to another body, it ceases to be what it was before."

"You have nothing human in you, if you did, other goddesses would have noticed who you are, your soul has changed so much that it is now like a viscous black mass that tries to consume any energy that approaches it."

"Of course, because it’s like that, you ended up losing certain parts of your former self, but that doesn’t matter, I’m sure I gave you what I promised, you have a chance for revenge."

"You have talent, you have power, you have servants, you have everything you could want to achieve your goals that ultimately align with mine."

"But even though I created you to serve my purposes, I love you as my daughter, in the end you came out of my body, it’s impossible for me not to have affection for you."

"Where do you think you were before?" She questions with a little smile.

"..."

"Your soul was obviously inside my body, if it wasn’t, it would have dispersed, so from the moment you talked to me, you were already connected to me."

"You were inside my body and then were sent to the egg when you accepted to be my daughter, your soul that I deemed suitable fused with the body inside the egg, generating you."

"So in summary, I truly love you, but in my own way, you can’t expect love like a human, because I can’t provide that kind of love."

"That’s okay, I never expected that, I’m already very happy that you love me." I don’t need her to love me like humans love each other.

My notion of love has become too distorted over time for me to really care about that, just the fact that she really likes me in any way is something that cheers me up and makes my heart beat faster.

"M-Mom...could you...let me suck on your breast?" I say this unusual request, but without a hint of lust in my voice or gaze, I just really want this as an instinct and a way to confirm that I am her daughter and she is my mother.

"...Of course, come here daughter, you are still a child and since you have done such a good job following the path I made for you, I will give you this little reward." she says with a smile as she exposes her huge breast.

I approach her and sit in her lap, quickly I put my mouth on her nipple and start sucking, and incredibly, milk comes out.

"Hmmmm" I moan with satisfaction at the taste, it is strangely the most delicious thing I have ever eaten, nothing so far compares to this milk that I can’t describe the taste of, it’s so good.

She caresses my head as I close my eyes and continue sucking, feeling a desire to sleep, but to keep drinking this milk.

"This is a recognition mechanism, daughter, think of it as a confirmation of my love for you."

"If I had denied it, it would mean that I didn’t recognize you as my daughter, and the fact that you yourself asked for it shows that you are a complete Tenebris Abyssus."

"You must be sleepy...you can sleep, the Tenebris Abyssus tend not to sleep well near anything."

"Even if you sleep, your mind is always awake and ready to kill any dangerous thing that comes near, you can only truly sleep near something you have complete trust in."

"I’m glad you trust me so much that you’re willing to expose your life in this way."

"Now enjoy the proof of my love for you, my dear daughter, sleep well." She says in a loving tone.