SEX WITH MY BEST FRIEND'S FIANCÉ-Chapter 9 - NINE

- HAZEL -

Looking for another word for dick? I’ll gladly recommend Killian. How he pretends like I’m non-existent shocks me to an incredible amount. I clenched my fists on my thighs, narrowing my gaze at him while fighting the urge to kick his feet from underneath the table.



Did watching them kill me slowly? Yes, I felt my heart rip again into a million pieces. 



Did I stop looking? No. 



Do I have a choice? No, not really, unless I want to give myself out. I’d hate it if Kate thought I didn’t get along with her fiancé when it’s exactly the opposite. 



Very much far from the opposite. We got along quite too well. 



Ugh! Fuck my mind! It’s not meant to be against me! 



I rolled my eyes and exhaled. 



It’ll crush Kate to know the truth. Now I don’t know which is worse. Lying and pretending it never happened or telling her and risking her heart break and our friendship being ruined. 



I know the right thing to do, but right now, I don’t want to be that good girl. I glanced at both of them. A weak smile formed on my lips. 



Watching them be all lovey-dovey on the other side of the table makes me want to throw up. Yet despite this, my need is heightened and I’m wet. Ridiculously wet that I fear if I stand, there’ll be a spill on my dress. This is the worst time to be this way and oh boy, have I learnt my lesson about sleeping around. 



I laughed under my breath. It still hurts though even though it shouldn’t. It was meant to last for just one night. Or at least, be an awesome memory. I hate that he teased me like that. I hate that my body still craves what it shouldn’t and it sickens me. 



"Hazel?" Someone whispered my name. I heard the same voice call my name faintly a second time. At this point, I don’t even know if I’m in my head or I’m actually being called. 





"Hazel!" Kate shouted. The kick on my toe brought me back to earth. I blinked severally and looked around. That attracted eyes. 



"Sorry." I whispered under my breath with a flicker of my fingers. 



"Are you alright, honey? You haven’t touched your meal and you seem...., well, off." Kate sounds worried. I glanced from her to Killian then back at her. A smile formed on my face. 



"I’m fine. I was just...." I tried to look for the right word. "Thinking." I swallowed. 



"Really?" She asks, leaning her hand over the table to touch mine. Her soft, little fingers clenched around mine. "About what?" 



I just smiled in return. There are some things she really doesn’t need to know and there are some things that shouldn’t be said. This is one of them. 



"If it’s private and you don’t want to say it here, I tots understand and we can head to the loo if you need to get it off your chest." You see? Kate loves me. I love that she’s worried about me and cares despite being with the supposed ’love of her life’. This girl I call my bff deserves a happy marriage and love. 



(Translation; Tots mean totally)



What if you’re not the first one? What if he does this again, ....with someone else? 



My throat tightened.



I don’t want him to do that. The thought of him doing anything vile with someone else makes me jealous. Not because it’ll be wrong but simply because it’ll be with someone else.



"Honey?" Kate calls. Ugh, I was lost in my head again. 



"Just school and stuff. I’m wondering how I’ll cope this semester." I rolled my eyes and shrugged. "Pfft, have I told you about my roommates? Different personalities for sure." I laughed, trying to shrug my thoughts off. 



"I know you and we will get back to this, but tell me about your roomies." Kate sang-song. 



Well, that’s the perks of having a bff. She sees right through me. Thankfully, not too deep.



I smiled. "You just don’t let things go, do you?" 



"Nope. Never." Kate placed her elbows on the table and crossed her fingers over each other. She rested her chin on them. "That’s why you love me." 



"True, but sometimes, I swear I want to sell you for a donut." I finally took a bite from the appetiser. Oh my god. It’s so good. It’s cold, yet so good. "You have taste!" I said, full mouthed, using my palm to block my lips from them. 



"I know." Kate giggled. Thankfully, Killian has been silent. To me, it’s a good thing. I was worried about leaving this dinner to spend time with Kate and talking after knowing her fiancé is the man I had sex with, but, I’m more terrified about being in the same room with Killian whether we’re alone or not. 



Part of me feels like he’s going to blurt out what transpired between us that night but another part tells me he wouldn’t dare. 



A man that cheats will never tell his finacée that he cheated. Unless he doesn’t love her or is looking for a way out of the relationship. 



I gulped and licked my lips. 



But that was one good sex though. I shook the thought out of my mind. 



"Now, fill me in." Kate beamed. She wants to know about my roommates. I grinned. Talking about them will definitely ease up my mind a little. 



"Sure!" I took another bite. "Just let me eat first. I don’t want to choke." 



Choke. Sounds familiar? My eyes widened and I stared at Killian. He acts like he doesn’t even know me. Like we didn’t just have that conversation a few minutes ago. 



My brows creased. I hate to admit this, but as good as him ignoring me is, it irks me. I don’t want him not to acknowledge me. I don’t want to be just a memory even though that’s what it was meant to be from the start. I want more but I can’t have more. 



I swallowed hastily. A lump got stuck in my throat and choked, reaching my hand forward to the glass if water in front of me. I forced it down my throat.  freёweɓnovel.com



"Ha! Even without me pestering you, you choked anyway." Kate laughed. 



That made me roll my eyes. I would have reacted the same way if I were in her shoes.



"Ha, ha, very funny." I blurt out hoarsely, wiping my mouth dry with a serviette. I snuck a glance at Killian. To be honest, part of me wished he at least acted like he cared about me for a second but he didn’t. 



I sighed. 



As long as he’s with my best friend, I will force these thoughts down the sewage and kill every bit of attraction I have toward him. I poured myself another glass of water. While drinking out of my cup, I stared at Killian. 



Fuck. Why does he have to be so handsome?