I Am the Only Fertile Woman in the Game-Chapter 256 To the Future Self

I think I should thank you, but somehow, I just can’t bring myself to do it.

I followed every step you taught me in your letter, obediently carrying out each one. The effects were very good, and I believe when you come back, you’ll deeply understand all of this.

But these years haven’t been as happy as they seem on the surface...

Do you remember? When I came to this world, I wanted to go home.

I wonder if you’ve been back?

Is Xixi doing okay?

What about Qiao Jiming?

Does Mom still speak in that strange tone?

I always feel like everything here isn’t real, even though I have so much now, but I don’t feel like it belongs to me.

You understand that feeling, don’t you? Both of us know, this is just a game, it’s virtual, we can’t live in the virtual world forever.

I showed Zong Fang your letter, and as you said, we cleared up many misunderstandings and had many calm discussions, but for some reason, I always feel like there’s something missing between us. He’s still very good to me, takes care of me in every possible way, and everything revolves around me, but I still feel something has quietly changed. He occasionally stares blankly at me, and I know, he’s waiting for that moment, the moment when the future you returns.

And at times like that, I feel a little heartache.

I’m right in front of them, yet Zong Fang and Anubis are always waiting for that day, and I think Ruka has noticed it too, though he’s never said anything.

However, these are just small regrets in the otherwise good life I’ve had these years. I know that perhaps compared to what you’ve experienced, they’re nothing, but I still want to tell you about them.

You must be amazing, right?

I can feel your strength from your words, you seem to have become very resolute, brave, and decisive, exactly the way I want to be.

But I hope that you, who’ve become so strong, won’t lose your innocence and original intentions.

Qiao Suisui, we should blossom in reality.

Don’t forget the way home.

...

The wind stirred the sheer curtains, and the scattered drawings enveloped the girl sitting on the floor. Qiao Suisui looked at the letter in her hands with downcast eyes, her thoughts inscrutable.

Outside the hall.

Leberli went to the banquet hall to deal with the guests still detained, ordering his assistant to prepare valuable parting gifts as he walked and instructing the Minister of Foreign Affairs to draft an explanation to give everyone a respectable account of the events at the banquet.

Anubis hurried to the medical team’s office; he now needed to urgently brush up on a lot of knowledge about pregnancy and childbirth, his mind filled with what she should and shouldn’t eat.

Carl stood outside the hall, not leaving, leaning against a column in the corridor and smoking. It was clear he wanted to meet Qiao Suisui as soon as she was rested.

Zong Fang and Ruka exchanged glances, neither spoke, then walked in the same direction.

The two arrived at an empty meeting room, Zong Fang closed the door, and his next words were, "What do you think?"

Ruka mulled over the question and after a long pause, heaved a gentle sigh. "I don’t know."

If it were other men here, they might not understand this conversation at all, but clearly, Zong Fang and Ruka had some sort of understanding with each other.

Zong Fang said, "I won’t let her leave. You heard her just now, she has family in another world, why didn’t you let me continue to ask? I still don’t know how exactly she left..."

"What are you going to do if you find out?" Ruka challenged him: "Destroy her means of returning? Or simply lock her up, like she was treated before?"

Zong Fang was rendered speechless, for they all knew he would never treat Qiao Suisui like that.

Ruka pressed his temples and composed his emotions before saying, "All we can do is respect her decision, without other recourse."

"Then can you really stand by and watch her leave?"

There was a tumult of glittering light in Zong Fang’s eyes as the emotions he’d been suppressing in front of Qiao Suisui burst forth unrestrained.

"You might be able to live without her, but I can’t."

Ruka frowned and gave him a shove, his voice a rare growl of anger, "So what can you do? Force her? Or pester her every day until she grows tired of you?"

Zong Fang clenched his teeth, his chest heaving and the veins on his forehead bulging.

Ruka walked past him and paused with his hand on the doorknob, saying something that seemed to be either a warning to Zong Fang or a way to convince himself, "No matter what her choice is, I will accept it, even... if she wants to leave."

...

Having composed herself, Qiao Suisui intended to visit the children. Just as she stepped out of the palace gates, she saw Carl squatting in the corridor, his back to her, busily engaged in something.

She approached and called out "Carl," only to see the man stand up flusteredly, waving his hands clumsily to disperse the smell of smoke, with a pile of cigarette butts at his feet.

Qiao Suisui glanced at the butts, noting there must be at least seven or eight.

"When did your addiction become so severe?"

Carl laughed nonchalantly, "Just bored." Then he changed the subject: "Did you rest well?"

She nodded, "Aren’t Harvis and the others leaving tomorrow? I’d like to see them." free𝑤ebnovel.com

Once Carl was sure there was no trace of smell on him, he took her hand and said, "I’ll go with you."

The Imperial Court was vast, with Qiao Suisui’s palace situated at the very heart of the central axis. The children’s sleeping quarters were distributed on the east and west sides of the Imperial Court, with Ruka and the four children living on the east, Leberli as the Sun residing directly behind Qiao Suisui’s palace—also on the central axis—and the six Deer calfs on the west. Carl and the five leopard calfs lived in the southwest, while Zong Fang had his own place in the northeast. The children all stayed in the Federation, with Anubis living adjacent to Zong Fang.

While Qiao Suisui was still deciding whether to go east to see Harvis and his group or west to see Taier and his, Carl nonchalantly summoned a servant and instructed him to gather all the children in the reception hall nearest to them. The servant bowed respectfully and hurried away.

Carl fiddled with her hand and said, "We really should’ve had them come to you first thing, but I didn’t want to disturb your rest. It’s not too late. Let them run around a bit; I’ll accompany you on a leisurely stroll there."

Qiao Suisui smiled in agreement, and as they made their way to the reception hall, they unexpectedly ran into a person she hadn’t seen in a long time.

"Suisui..."

The clear and melodious voice sounded, and Qiao Suisui looked toward it, seeing Lanze standing a few steps away, waiting quietly.

"Lanze?" she asked, surprised and quickening her pace, but Carl pulled her back.

Carl lazily lifted his eyes, staring at the person before him, and said, "What are you doing here?"

In this timeline, after Qiao Suisui and Zong Fang cleared up the misunderstanding, they found Lanze as the letter had instructed. Lanze openly admitted to everything he had done, but the one thing he could not let go of over these years was the fact that he had no place by her side.

Subsequently, he used Neo’s whereabouts as a bargaining chip to get Leberli’s permission to move back to the Imperial Court. Although he hadn’t done anything inappropriate in all these years, he would occasionally show up to maintain a presence in front of Qiao Suisui, causing the other men to harbor hidden dissatisfaction. However, caught without any blatant faults, if they were too aggressive with him, they risked being given the cold shoulder by Qiao Suisui.

Thus, Lanze cleverly maintained a balance.

Now, he knew it was time for him to break that balance.

Lanze smiled faintly, the spiritual silk bypassing Carl and gently wrapping around Qiao Suisui’s ankles, he said to her, "I heard you suddenly fainted, are you alright?"

Sensing a grim look on Carl’s face, Qiao Suisui shook his arm gently, "You go ahead, I’ll be there soon."

Carl raised an eyebrow and scoffed, "Step aside for him? No way. If you have something to say, say it here. I’ll watch you talk."